today is shit.
i get these little bursts of energy where i run around like a mad woman and am all jovial. then it stops, and i feel deflated and thick and empty... does that make any sense? nothing i say or write makes sense to me today. i really need to go in for medication. i'm kind of apprehensive about doing so, though. i was on prozac when i was younger and it didn't do anything... i don't want to go in and have them say "oh yeah, this will work" and then have it not. i guess if i don't know either way at least i can hope something will... that logic is rather stupid. it works for me though. how fitting. i feel rather close to tears. shit. i'm gonna go sleep. adieu.

Mood:peachy keen...
Music:eels...