guess who's going to prom... i am. how silly... i know, but it's my last chance and it may be fun...who knows. and i'll get to get all dolled up! imagine me in a dress... NO, DON'T. the idea of people imagining me in anything is kinda scary... i'll imagine it. *imagine imagine imagine* hehehee. it will be great...okay, no it won't but hey...oh well. i haven't owned or worn a dress since...um...i think it was like six or seven... i had one for easter when i was 4, but half-way through the visit with family, i stripped it off and played in the rain in my slip... my mother was furious... ahh, memories. i loved that slip... i'll try to keep my dress on at prom, though... no promises. :) oh how girlie am i?
Mood: crazy
Music:voodoo glow skulls and rancid...oh and what's this... NOFX
Saturday, March 31, 2001
Friday, March 30, 2001
I AM A FLIPPIN' MASTER OF DISGUISE!
any of you who don't yet believe that i am truely a genious...
today we had to go to this career thingy at the local community college (and when i say "we" i am refering to other people along with myself), and i saw this guy that i used to go to school with, before i moved here. we used to be friends until things got...oh, i'll spare you all the details and go with...weird between us. now it's just really awkward when we see each other. you know, "hi...um...how's..."it" going?" (why when it's uncomfortable betwixt people, does at least one of the parties feel a need to drawl out every phrase to it's maximum length? say it and get it over with!) anyhow, so today i saw him standing about 20 feet away and he started turning my way...so i put my hands over my eyes! hehehe. i think i fooled him. i'm so tricky!
muahaha! anyway, that was my excitement for the day...sad, no?
byeeee!
Mood: jubilant
Music:kitty purring on my shoulder...he thinks he's a parrot...
today we had to go to this career thingy at the local community college (and when i say "we" i am refering to other people along with myself), and i saw this guy that i used to go to school with, before i moved here. we used to be friends until things got...oh, i'll spare you all the details and go with...weird between us. now it's just really awkward when we see each other. you know, "hi...um...how's..."it" going?" (why when it's uncomfortable betwixt people, does at least one of the parties feel a need to drawl out every phrase to it's maximum length? say it and get it over with!) anyhow, so today i saw him standing about 20 feet away and he started turning my way...so i put my hands over my eyes! hehehe. i think i fooled him. i'm so tricky!
muahaha! anyway, that was my excitement for the day...sad, no?
byeeee!
Mood: jubilant
Music:kitty purring on my shoulder...he thinks he's a parrot...
Thursday, March 29, 2001
*sigh*
i'm feeling a little better now... i need to learn to breeeaaathe. people suck, though. me included... i'm a bad, bad person sometimes, so i guess i deserve to be treated like crap by others from time to time. keep me in line. oh well... i don't care. blahhh. why does it matter to me what people say? or, some people anyway... with most people, i couldn't care less what they think. then there's this minute fraction of the population that can actually hurt me if they choose...and they do. why do i let THEM matter? why would i care at all? *radiates luminous codependency* oh fuck me... i don't understand those who feel a need to make people feel like shit. if i upset anyone (and realize it), i feel horrid! i suppose that's just my weird guilt complex, though...
oh vell, that's them... i don't need them. i have better people to surround myself with. i shall do just that... i need to move on. i needed to have moved on long ago, but... i don't have an excuse for not. OH, OH! i thought of an excuse! i'm stooopid! that about covers it! taaadaa! *takes bow* yeah...
anyhooo...i'm gonna go enjoy tim amstrong's loverly...voice... oooh grrrr... calm calm.
*blushes*
okay, love yoo, buhbi.
Mood: okay
Music:punk-o-ramaaa 4...rancid...mmmm...
oh vell, that's them... i don't need them. i have better people to surround myself with. i shall do just that... i need to move on. i needed to have moved on long ago, but... i don't have an excuse for not. OH, OH! i thought of an excuse! i'm stooopid! that about covers it! taaadaa! *takes bow* yeah...
anyhooo...i'm gonna go enjoy tim amstrong's loverly...voice... oooh grrrr... calm calm.
*blushes*
okay, love yoo, buhbi.
Mood: okay
Music:punk-o-ramaaa 4...rancid...mmmm...
Wednesday, March 28, 2001
people are great. right entertaining. usually they just get on my delicate little nerves, but today...nope. they're kinda cute. i'm starting to worry myself. i'm in a really good mood. look at me! *grinning from ear to god knows where* there MUST be something wrong with me... *sigh* oh my! my living quarters are a disaster! i should clean... i should do something productive...i should paint. i left myself a comment at the art show saying, "GIVE UP THE ARTS!!!" i'm wondering if they will pass it on to me. probably not. but then, if they don't, it raises an interesting question...what else are they sensoring? they probably don't pass on the negative comments. the sensitive budding artists that we are. i happen to like the negative ones though! oh, and erin, you got some really sappy ones to read in class... "good luck in the future!" "way to go!" and such... i got "your drawing really makes me think" or something like that... how silly...
anyway, i'm done. much love to anyone who may be reading this... *kisses*
Mood: happy
Music:none to speak of...
anyway, i'm done. much love to anyone who may be reading this... *kisses*
Mood: happy
Music:none to speak of...
Tuesday, March 27, 2001
here's yet another survey thing...i felt left out/bored...yeah...
um...i've never filled one of these surveys out so i figured i might as well...it's my first and last, so enjoy!
..basics..
name: elise "mckenna" abbygale bassett hudson
nicknames: mckenna (obviously), kennaPea (who'da thought?), um...you can call me anything you want though....
birthday: september 30, 1982
zodiac sign: libra...what's yours, sugar?
school: lyndenl high school, go lions! *cough cough* oh, now i'm all out of school spirit.
color of eyes / hair: hair|fading burgandy eyes|hazel
height: 3'6" or 5'5"...you choose
pets: cats|cat and pokey
..have you ever..
had an online romance?: i dunno...i flirt i guess. i like being in the same room wif someone, though.
been in a quiet room and screamed just to have noise?: yeah...or i sing. i hate silence.
left the country?: yeah...
been so drunk you blacked out?: not since i was 4-days-old... i hold liquer better now.
taken any illegal substances?: not proud of it...
gone out in your p.j.'s?: they're cozy
missed school because it was raining?: i LOVE the rain!
set yourself or a body part on fire?: not lately...? some people have too much time on they're hands
cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?: ...he started it...
started dancing when there was no music?: maaaayyybe
pretended u were an opera singer?: no, i'm not talented enough to even try...
had an imaginary friend?: three...it was when i was little...they flew away eventually.
crashed into a public wall?: usually just doorjams
ever cried at a 'chick flick'?: oh. sometimes...i guess. couldn't name an instance...
had a crush on a teacher?: :)
done something stupid to impress your crush?: nope...
laughed so hard your drink came out of your nose?: hehe, no. but it's funny when it happens to others...i try to execute only one function at a time...it's safer that way.
laughed so hard you cried?: yes, often!
found a cartoon character attractive?: um...i don't think so...i could be wrong...i can't recall.
at anytime owned a 'new kids on the block' cd?: cd? no... tape? um...
called or seen a psychic?: well, there was this horse once and the damned thing had this really eerie talent...um, no.
planned your week based on the tv guide?: nooo...that's why there are reruns...
acted out of the ordinary?: ordinary based on what standards?
prank called someone?: yeah...it was lame.
been on stage?: yep...i cried in this one play in theatre class. it was great. and the next day i got to yell and make someone else cry.
gotten in a car accident?: nope...not yet
made homemade fudge?: i was bored and....
..favorites..
color/s: i love all colors
day or night: night. morning comes too early
type(s) of music: love it all....not new country, though. or the new "pop" crap. i guess i shouldn't have said i love it all then, huh? alright, most!
chick flick: dunno...i like lots of movies. i don't classify chick flicks, though.
actor: gabriel burns, tim roth, johnny lee miller...these are the only ones i can remember...
actress: bjork (...she was in a movie!), shirley mcclaine...
person: you know who you are
cd: right now? um...radiohead-kid A, rancid-...and out come the wolves, miles davis-kind of blue, bjork-homogenic...oh, there's more...lots...
place: away...
song: just one?
rapper: i dunno...not partial to any in particular
clothes: on who?
red or blue: violet
old madonna or new madonna: niether... why madonna? why no elvis? is she dead yet?
character on 'saved by the bell': don't bring that back!
character on dawson's creek: no, no, no!
character on the brady bunch: what! this is a weird-ass combination! saved by the bell, dawson's creek, and the brady bunch? who came up with these? what are you on? seek help...and get cable!
soap opera: none. my grandmother tapes them, but thank god it's not hereditary.
wrestler of all time: oh, all of 'em! if you can't think of any good questions, just give up.
n sync or 98 degrees?: ...as what, lunchmeat? housepets? oh, lemmee guess, action figures! ...so, i'd hafta go with...niether.
..friends..
do you have a best friend?: why rank friends? i love them all.
do you rank your speed-dial?: no...we for some reason have 911 listed as number 3, though.
who's your funniest friend?: erin and soosin make me laugh.
the end...
what a grand waste of time! okay, good evening.
Mood: artistic
Music:rancid, hole, operation ivy, radiohead, tricky, the cure...
..basics..
name: elise "mckenna" abbygale bassett hudson
nicknames: mckenna (obviously), kennaPea (who'da thought?), um...you can call me anything you want though....
birthday: september 30, 1982
zodiac sign: libra...what's yours, sugar?
school: lyndenl high school, go lions! *cough cough* oh, now i'm all out of school spirit.
color of eyes / hair: hair|fading burgandy eyes|hazel
height: 3'6" or 5'5"...you choose
pets: cats|cat and pokey
..have you ever..
had an online romance?: i dunno...i flirt i guess. i like being in the same room wif someone, though.
been in a quiet room and screamed just to have noise?: yeah...or i sing. i hate silence.
left the country?: yeah...
been so drunk you blacked out?: not since i was 4-days-old... i hold liquer better now.
taken any illegal substances?: not proud of it...
gone out in your p.j.'s?: they're cozy
missed school because it was raining?: i LOVE the rain!
set yourself or a body part on fire?: not lately...? some people have too much time on they're hands
cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?: ...he started it...
started dancing when there was no music?: maaaayyybe
pretended u were an opera singer?: no, i'm not talented enough to even try...
had an imaginary friend?: three...it was when i was little...they flew away eventually.
crashed into a public wall?: usually just doorjams
ever cried at a 'chick flick'?: oh. sometimes...i guess. couldn't name an instance...
had a crush on a teacher?: :)
done something stupid to impress your crush?: nope...
laughed so hard your drink came out of your nose?: hehe, no. but it's funny when it happens to others...i try to execute only one function at a time...it's safer that way.
laughed so hard you cried?: yes, often!
found a cartoon character attractive?: um...i don't think so...i could be wrong...i can't recall.
at anytime owned a 'new kids on the block' cd?: cd? no... tape? um...
called or seen a psychic?: well, there was this horse once and the damned thing had this really eerie talent...um, no.
planned your week based on the tv guide?: nooo...that's why there are reruns...
acted out of the ordinary?: ordinary based on what standards?
prank called someone?: yeah...it was lame.
been on stage?: yep...i cried in this one play in theatre class. it was great. and the next day i got to yell and make someone else cry.
gotten in a car accident?: nope...not yet
made homemade fudge?: i was bored and....
..favorites..
color/s: i love all colors
day or night: night. morning comes too early
type(s) of music: love it all....not new country, though. or the new "pop" crap. i guess i shouldn't have said i love it all then, huh? alright, most!
chick flick: dunno...i like lots of movies. i don't classify chick flicks, though.
actor: gabriel burns, tim roth, johnny lee miller...these are the only ones i can remember...
actress: bjork (...she was in a movie!), shirley mcclaine...
person: you know who you are
cd: right now? um...radiohead-kid A, rancid-...and out come the wolves, miles davis-kind of blue, bjork-homogenic...oh, there's more...lots...
place: away...
song: just one?
rapper: i dunno...not partial to any in particular
clothes: on who?
red or blue: violet
old madonna or new madonna: niether... why madonna? why no elvis? is she dead yet?
character on 'saved by the bell': don't bring that back!
character on dawson's creek: no, no, no!
character on the brady bunch: what! this is a weird-ass combination! saved by the bell, dawson's creek, and the brady bunch? who came up with these? what are you on? seek help...and get cable!
soap opera: none. my grandmother tapes them, but thank god it's not hereditary.
wrestler of all time: oh, all of 'em! if you can't think of any good questions, just give up.
n sync or 98 degrees?: ...as what, lunchmeat? housepets? oh, lemmee guess, action figures! ...so, i'd hafta go with...niether.
..friends..
do you have a best friend?: why rank friends? i love them all.
do you rank your speed-dial?: no...we for some reason have 911 listed as number 3, though.
who's your funniest friend?: erin and soosin make me laugh.
the end...
what a grand waste of time! okay, good evening.
Mood: artistic
Music:rancid, hole, operation ivy, radiohead, tricky, the cure...
Sunday, March 25, 2001
the following is completely pointless...don't even bother reading it...it will kill brain-cells...
hhmmm...i've just realized that i have nothing to say... um... nope, nothing. that's it! i'm gonna sit here till i think of something to say...
nevermind... i'm gonna go fetch a pepsi. caffeine inspiration. that's what i need. maybe a cup of tea... perhaps a shower. or bubbly-bath. or the couch. oh...whatever. bye
Mood: bored
Music:none! oh noo... that's why this entry sucks! i know it!
nevermind... i'm gonna go fetch a pepsi. caffeine inspiration. that's what i need. maybe a cup of tea... perhaps a shower. or bubbly-bath. or the couch. oh...whatever. bye
Mood: bored
Music:none! oh noo... that's why this entry sucks! i know it!
Friday, March 23, 2001
it wasn't like that.
i wasn't given that chance.
i cringed and burst into flames,
but where were you?
you had already fallen to
their words.
you had fallen for the propaganda they
spewed
and left me to pick up the blame and be the fool.
meanwhile you agreed with what they said,
nodded like a doll,
and denied me like some gruesome accusation.
you grew too old, too high,
too clever for me,
for us all.
i wept the loss
and cursed your head.
but i also cooled,
hardened,
forgot your voice and the words
that used to seep from your lips
and surround me.
but i don't hear then anymore.
and i can't remember that last time
i felt the warmth
or the glow that you gave off.
my mind brushes the topic of
you from time to time,
but i don't dwell.
i haven't the time
to waste.
i haven't the strength of heart.
i can't remember what i used to feel,
but now i don't care.
Mood:carnivoroussss
Music:...nobody loves meee, it's true. not like you dooo...
i wasn't given that chance.
i cringed and burst into flames,
but where were you?
you had already fallen to
their words.
you had fallen for the propaganda they
spewed
and left me to pick up the blame and be the fool.
meanwhile you agreed with what they said,
nodded like a doll,
and denied me like some gruesome accusation.
you grew too old, too high,
too clever for me,
for us all.
i wept the loss
and cursed your head.
but i also cooled,
hardened,
forgot your voice and the words
that used to seep from your lips
and surround me.
but i don't hear then anymore.
and i can't remember that last time
i felt the warmth
or the glow that you gave off.
my mind brushes the topic of
you from time to time,
but i don't dwell.
i haven't the time
to waste.
i haven't the strength of heart.
i can't remember what i used to feel,
but now i don't care.
Mood:carnivoroussss
Music:...nobody loves meee, it's true. not like you dooo...
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